Confessions of Trag

New Journal

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 13:00:22 GMT

I've gotten tired of this journal and its meaningless username. acmilan? What was I thinking?

Anyway, the new one is findingmimo.

Hehehe, I'm very proud of this new name, so don't insult it.

These past few days...

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 15:47:00 GMT

Have been pretty boring. I've just been around the house mostly. Most of my friends are still out of town. School starts Monday (I know it's early, but we get a long Christmas break).

I'm reading Digital Fortress by Dan Brown. I'm also doing some music stuff. I did one short recording yesterday. It's fun stuff. I heard this tune on the radio and took the melody. Then I just added my own little bass line and had my sister tap some keys on the keyboard. I recorded it on Soun

I think I'll change my bass string today for the first time, since they're getting pretty rusty. I'll keep the old strings in a box. Maybe some day I might be able to auction them of for thousands of dollars... Milan Thomas' first set of bass strings.

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. Lots of boring, important people came. I was up here for most of the time, but I did meet a few interesting people.

667 really sucks these days. I know I say it a lot, but it's true. Maybe I'll just stay away from it for a while.

I'm feeling pretty lazy. I try to get outside and do stuff as much as I can, but after that long trip I'm still pretty exhausted. I think some school will do me good. Get me back in action.

Now I'm going to watch I, Robot. See ya.

Travel Wrap Up

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 19:03:00 GMT

I'm back home now. It's nice to be back. I'm pretty tired, but it's nice to be able to sit at home and fool around with the stuff I bought on vacation.

So, after we left India, I was happy. We made a stop in L.A. to visit my family there, then returned to D.C. for a few days, where I basically just spent time with my cousin.

I also visited a few schools in D.C. I went to Sidwell, Maret and Washington International Schools. I might want to go to one of them next year.

We stopped in London for a couple days before getting back home. Nice place. Nice weather. Nice attractions.

And now we're back. I'll probably have more to say later :)

Fifth Travel Update

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 09:12:56 GMT

India is one crazy place. But I guess I like it. Sort of relaxing, and everything is dirt cheap. I feel richer than before.

But I can't wait to go back to the U.S. anyway. Just two more days until our return flights start... And I can go do my old stuff in D.C. before we get back home.

Fourth Travel Update

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 18:54:22 GMT

I'm glad I've been able to get on a computer more lately. I need to write and organize my thoughts.

We spent a day in Singapore and now I'm in India. They have a computer in our room with free internet access... At least I have one thing to be happy about.

Yes, I'm still sad about leaving Manila. I just feel so lost and alone. Like I've lost something huge in my life. But it's like I said, I'll tell the full Manila story when I get back home. And I'll write about the Woe Scandal :-)

In Singapore, my dad bought me this digital camera thing. It cost about 350 Singapore Dollars. It can store and play mp3, take pics and do video and voice recording. I'm not usually into gadgets like that, but I figured I could probably use this thing. Seems like a good deal, as it's 1.7 Singapore Dollars to 1 US Dollar. So it really only cost about 200 bucks. Nothing.

Okay... More later. Still not feeling happy at all.. I wish I could do something about it.

Third Travel Update

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 13:58:03 GMT

I had a wonderful time in Manila. I'll save the full story for later. So much to say.

I'm in Singapore now, and for the first time as long as I can remember I feel this devastating, pounding sadness within myself. I feel so sad I just want to breakdown and cry. I did not want to leave Manila. But like I said, I'll tell you more later.

We're off to India tomorrow. I'm already ready to go home. I'm tired. Maybe I'll cheer up later. I'd forgotten what it's like to be deeply sad.

Second Travel Update

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 08:24:18 GMT

I've been busy. My dad's had this laptop the whole time but I've never had time to sit down and use it. So here I am now.

Now that I'm travelling, I'm starting to lose my sense of time. I didn't realize it was July 7th until I checked the calendar just now.

My last days in Maryland were good. I visited the Muckenfusses. Cantwell is my best friend. Even after I left I still feel comfortable around him. It's not the same when I visit others. They've changed. It's so sad.

Anyway, Cantwell's family (the Muckenfusses) are doing well. Allie is off to college. She got breast implants a few months ago. She's very proud of it too. "Hey look Milan, 300 ccs."

They offered to host me this coming school year if I feel like coming back to Maryland. They said I might be able to go to Sidwell with Cantwell. That would be fun.

We went through L.A. after that, and spent a day there. It's a nice city. The weather was very nice. Too bad we didn't stay longer. I'd been there before, but it was a while ago and I didn't remember.

Then we spent a day in Hong Kong. I liked it a lot. It's very different, but it's an interesting culture. I got scared by some street vendors though. They pounce on you. We took a little boat ride too.

Then we went to Manila, where I am now. We've been here since... Friday, I think. Despair and Woe visited us here! They haven't changed a bit. Woe still bullies Despair around, and Despair is still just a kid living in a 15 year old body. Misery was there also, and we relived old times and stuff. We're going to visit their house tomorrow. It's too bad they had to move here. Their dad's business made them do it.

We're going to the beach with them Saturday morning, and leaving the Philippines on Monday. Then it's off to India, where my dad has some... business stuff to do. Then back around through London (I think) and to Washington D.C., then back home for the start of school.

Whew. I'm having a great time. See you all later. I'll write some more when I can.

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 16:01:40 GMT

Here's my first travel update.

We arrived here in Washington DC on Thursday. The flight was good. I watched Along Came Polly on the plane, and slept for like 4 hours I think.

We're staying at the Washington Suites... Not that any of you know where that is. The past few days I've been doing a lot of shopping and visiting people. I've spent the last two nights here at my cousin's house. She's 28 but we get along well. She's at work so now I have this house basically to myself. My parents will pick me up tonight I think.

My dad gave me his Blackberry, and it's a lot of fun to use. I can access websites, do text messaging, write e-mails, use AIM and make phone calls, play games, and lots of other things. I'm still figuring out some of the functions. It's very handy.

There are still a few things I need to buy. I bought some clothes the other day but I'm still looking for Detroit Pistons gear. My nanny gave me 100 bucks to spend, and my parents gave 200. Plus I had some saved from before.

I bought some books as well. There's this book I'm reading called The Supernaturalist, by Eoin Colfer, that guy who wrote Artemis Fowl. It's really good. I also got ANGELS AND DEMONS by the guy who wrote the DaVinci Code.

That's it I guess. I thought we were going to London on Thursday. We're actually going there later in the trip. Our next stop is Los Angeles. I've got a few relatives and friends there. I'll be back home on the 28th of July.

I really missed D.C. I lived 13/15ths of my life here. It's so good to be back. I think I'll visit my old school tomorrow.

*nostalgia*

Traveling

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 14:00:33 GMT

I'm leaving in two hours. Yaaaayy. I'll be back on July 28th, I think. See you then.

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 15:25:27 GMT

Yesterday I had my last tennis class, and then in the afternoon I went bowling with some family friends. I hate bowling... So much.

And then I came home and finished Chapter 1 of that story I'm doing. Kobolos started provoking me. That guy... ugh. I'm not going to say it.

Anyway... That's all.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 18:53:01 GMT

Well...

For the past two days I've been taking tennis lessons in the morning. Tennis is just one of those sports I've never tried. It's actually quite fun.

The Pistons are one win away from their first championship in 14 years. I am so excited. I can't wait til 10 tonight, when the game tips off. If they lose, I'll kill myself.

I've been working on this 667 Dark Avenue story. Working really hard. I hope it turns out well.

Can't wait for us to leave for vacation. Sitting around at home and waiting for people to call you and make plans is boring.

interesting...

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 21:35:05 GMT

this is very interesting.

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 21:52:40 GMT

The Pistons won by 20 last night :-) Yaaaaayy.

Pretty boring day. I felt so lazy and bored until I went out and shot some hoops and felt a bit more... alive.

Then Bruno came over to re-string my Fender. He's pretty good at it. He only stayed for a while though. He actually drove over... He's not allowed to drive but we live so close I guess his parents don't care.

My parents are having some fancyschmancy dinner party tonight. A governor and some senators are supposedly coming. That's good. I'll get some privacy. My parents will probably make me greet some people and then I'll be allowed to come up here and do whatever I want. Oh, plus I get to eat yummy caterer food. Yaaaay.

Uggggh, this summer really sucks. It's just boring. I think I should ask some friends over so I have something to do... No one seems to be doing anything.

I can't wait until the 23rd, when we leave for the big trip.

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 00:37:13 GMT

I got up late today. I stayed up last night watching a heartbreaking defeat of my Detroit Pistons... I don't want to talk about it.

At like 1:30 I went and picked up the Korean and we went to the studio for the practice. It was a pretty good one. It took us a while to get warmed up and stuff but Sgt. Pepper turned out REALLY good by the end, and Aeroplane was respectably good. Hard to Explain was terrible...

And I realized why our band has problems. I'm great at what I do, playing the bass. Bruno is a respectable guitar player. Kyle is extremely talented on the drums. The Korean is just... a mad musician. He was born for it. Our problem is Felipe, the singer. He just can't sing. In the middle of a song he just stops and looks around and clears his throat. There are some run throughs I don't even HEAR is terrible voice because he sings so softly or he moves his mouth from the mic.

When you're playing a song you didn't write yourself, you usually follow it by the words. The lyrics. So what happens when you can't hear the words? The song falls apart. And it's all Felipe fault. I can't wait til we get a real singer. I kick him out now and we can rotate singing duties. All of us are 10x better than him.

OH GOD. Now I have these huge blisters on my bass fingers (right pointer and middle finger.) It was hard to type this up.

Maud's goodbye e-mail

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 13:25:55 GMT

After the terribly failed goodbye for Maud planned by Daniel, I figured none of us would really have properly wished her and stuff. But she sent me this e-mail and I replied... :-)

------------------------------------------------------------
hey milan,
i just wanted to say good bye, caus i dint have the chance to on monday.
You were a great friend, and ill miss ya, seriously. Especially makin fun of ppl, and beatin u at horse, puting salt on your head, and allt he fun times in jazz band. Have fun in EAB, and do a good job as class president, in memory of me....
Good-bye, and ill miss ya!
Maud
------------------------------------------------------------

I really am going to miss her. I mean if I think about it she's probably my best girl friend at school, and my girl friends are really important to me. I get along with them better than the boys because we don't argue and stuff. And they're just fun. You know?

All the guys in my grade are like, "I'm going to miss Maud for her hotness." I actually never saw her that way. Guess I was distracted by someone else :-)

According to Daniel Kliever, Maud said once at a party that I was her favorite boy to hangout with (he's been jealous since she said that.)

Oh well, that's the way things go. People leave. She's going back to Canada, by the way.

I have a feeling that by the start of the next school year, I'll have forgotten about her. That's how it is at my school.

Good Day

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 21:44:20 GMT

The Pistons won last night! YAY. I watched the entire game. Wonderful. I loved every minute.

I slept until like 11:00 today, and then I practiced until like 1:00, and then I ate lunch. After that I went to school to pick up some people and we went to Pier because Daniel the Korean wanted to play LASERTAG as a goodbye party for Maud. LASERTAG? What a loser idea. Lasertag IS SO STUPID and juvenile. Especially at Pier... Ugh. Dumb idea.

Luckily for me, and much to the disappointment of Daniel the Korean, the place was closed! So we ended up watching a movie instead. Maud, mariana, olivia and shireen went to The Day after tomorrow and Daniel Kliever, Elad, Cathy and I went to Harry Potter 3. Daniel the Korean went home. Hahahaha... loser.

It was good. The movie I mean. It was especially good watching with Daniel Kliever. He's not the brightest guy. I cracked up lots during the movie because he asked silly question. Example: When Harry got the Marauder's Map, Daniel asked, "Wait, is he on a treasure hunt?" and when they got to the time-turner part he asked, "Oh so now they're going to rewind time to when his parents were alive."

That guy is amazing. Me and Cathy were in tears at one point. I think she's read the book, so she realized how dumb his questions were.

I think I'm going to watch it again without distractions in a few days. Emma Watson is only getting cuter. "Do you want to move a bit closer?" The movie was a lot different from the book in many ways but I still enjoyed it.

Uhhh... Tonight I'll be staying home, because I'm still sick. I suppose I'll be practicing more for Wednesday's practice :-)

Funny/Sick/Retarded/Disgusting Convo

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 19:26:09 GMT

Ambition113: heeeyyy friend
omfg its rebecca: heeeeeey
Ambition113: heeeeeeyyy
Ambition113: long time
Ambition113: watch HP?
omfg its rebecca: YESDSHFJKSDf
Ambition113: lucky bitch
Ambition113: you lucky BITCH
Ambition113: i havent had time yet
omfg its rebecca: rachael's seen it 3 times
Ambition113: awwww i love rachael
Ambition113: she can just be a lucky GIRL
Ambition113: :-)
Ambition113: so was it good?
omfg its rebecca: yes!
Ambition113: good
Ambition113: im seeing it tuesday
omfg its rebecca: yay
Ambition113: better than the first two?
omfg its rebecca: much
Ambition113: yay
omfg its rebecca: yes
Ambition113: YESSS
Ambition113: how is life treating you?
omfg its rebecca: okay
omfg its rebecca: i guess
omfg its rebecca: you?
Ambition113: pretty good
Ambition113: im on summer vacation
Ambition113: are you?
omfg its rebecca: yep
Ambition113: yay
omfg its rebecca: yaaaaaay
omfg its rebecca: milan/rachael otp
omfg its rebecca: ...
Ambition113: awwww
Ambition113: it makes my heart warm when you type that
omfg its rebecca: :D
Ambition113: <3
omfg its rebecca: <3
Ambition113: <33333333333333333
Ambition113: how are your DECATS?
Ambition113: are they like... reverse cats?
omfg its rebecca: it starts monday.
omfg its rebecca: and it's a camp
Ambition113: ohh cool
Ambition113: some guy you like is going?
omfg its rebecca: YES
omfg its rebecca: patrickojgashdjf
Ambition113: is he sexay?
omfg its rebecca: YES
Ambition113: great i dont wanna hear about it
Ambition113: (:
omfg its rebecca: SOHOT
Ambition113: omg shut up
Ambition113: i dont wanna hear it
Ambition113: heh-heh-heh
omfg its rebecca: SOHOOOOOOOOOT
Ambition113: EWW GROSS STOP IT
omfg its rebecca: *melt*
Ambition113: YOURE LIKE ORGAZZZMING
Ambition113: hahaha. you melted.
omfg its rebecca: *dreamysigh*
Ambition113: youre scary when excited
omfg its rebecca: *orgasm*
Ambition113: UGHHH SICK
Ambition113: *faints*
omfg its rebecca: :D
Ambition113: NEVER DO THAT AGAIN
Ambition113: only us guys are allowed to orgasm online
Ambition113: not you!
omfg its rebecca: *DOUBLEORGASM*
Ambition113: UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Ambition113: STOPPPP!!!!
Ambition113: ITS JUST NOT RIGHT
omfg its rebecca: *TRIPLEORGASM*
Ambition113: OMG
Ambition113: (A) THATS LIKE NOT POSSIBLE (B) EWWWWW!!!!
omfg its rebecca: *...FOURSOMETHINGORGASM*
Ambition113: im glad rachael doesnt do this
Ambition113: STOP THAT
Ambition113: TOO MANY ORGASMS
omfg its rebecca: *FIVE*
omfg its rebecca: *SIX*
omfg its rebecca: *SEVEN*
omfg its rebecca: *EIGHT*
Ambition113: HOLY CRAP THATS NOT POSSIBLE STOP
omfg its rebecca: *NINTHORGASM*
omfg its rebecca: *TEN*
omfg its rebecca: *ELEVEN*
Ambition113: AHHH YOURE GONNA DIE
omfg its rebecca: *TWELVE*
omfg its rebecca: *THIRTEEN*
Ambition113: YOURE GONNA RUN OUT OF ORGASMS HAHAHAHAHHAHA
omfg its rebecca: *FOURTEEN*
omfg its rebecca: *FIFTEEN*
Ambition113: LOSER YOURE KILLING YOURSELF
Ambition113: HOLY CRAP STOP
omfg its rebecca: *SIXTEENORGASM*
omfg its rebecca: *SEVENTEEN*
Ambition113: *faints again*
omfg its rebecca: *EIGHTTEEN*
omfg its rebecca: *NINETEEN*
Ambition113: YOURE GONNA
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYORGASMS*
Ambition113: YOU KNOW WHAT!
omfg its rebecca: :D
Ambition113: YOUR ROOM
Ambition113: *phew*
Ambition113: you better hope your parents dont walk into your room for a few days
Ambition113: sicko
omfg its rebecca: *twentyone*
omfg its rebecca: hey
omfg its rebecca: ..damn it
omfg its rebecca: wrong box
Ambition113: HEHEHE
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYTWO*
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYTHREE*
Ambition113: YOUR ROOM IS GONNA UGHHHH IF YOU DONT STOP
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYFOUR*
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: NOO NOT THE SOUND EFFECTS
Ambition113: IT WAS BAD ENOUGH
omfg its rebecca: *EXTRA LOUD MOAN*
omfg its rebecca: OH YEAH
Ambition113: OH SHIT THIS HAS TO STOP
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYFIVE*
Ambition113: *runs around in circles covering ears*
Ambition113: PLEASE
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
omfg its rebecca: OH YEAH RIGHT THERE
Ambition113: you'lll never haveanother orgasm in your life if you dont stop.
Ambition113: i mean it!
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYSIX*
Ambition113: you're gonna kill yourself!
omfg its rebecca: *TWENTYSEVEN*
omfg its rebecca: ORGASM WITH ME, MILAN!
Ambition113: NO
omfg its rebecca: milan/rebecca!
Ambition113: YOU CANT MAKE ME
omfg its rebecca: YES I CAN
Ambition113: NOOOOO
omfg its rebecca: MILAN: *ORGASM*
Ambition113: STOP
Ambition113: IM A FAITHFUL BOY. I DONT NOT ORGASM WITH OTHER GIRLS
omfg its rebecca: MILAN: *ORGASMAGAIN*
Ambition113: MILAN <3 RACHAEL
Ambition113: STOPP!!
omfg its rebecca: MILAN: *ORGASM* OH YEAH REBECCA
Ambition113: STOP YOU SICKO
Ambition113: THIS IS LIKE... RAPE EXCEPT TEN TIMES WORSE
omfg its rebecca: :D
omfg its rebecca: :D
Ambition113: AHHHHHHH
Ambition113: *whew* thank god thats over... now pull yourself together!!!!! and... stop gasming
omfg its rebecca: *orgasm*
Ambition113: REBECCA YOURE GONNA RUN OUT OF YOU KNOW WHAT
Ambition113: STOP
omfg its rebecca: no i don't know what
omfg its rebecca: what will i run out of?
Ambition113: ENERGY YOU FOOL
Ambition113: i think its safe for me to stop capslocking
Ambition113: now that you've stopped :-)
Ambition113: yay
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: *ties up rebecca* its for your OWN GOOD
omfg its rebecca: OOH TIE HARDER
Ambition113: UGHH NO
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: WHAT MUST I DO TO MAKE YOU CEASE?
omfg its rebecca: *ORGASM*
Ambition113: *sobs* THIS IS SO WRONG
Ambition113: STOP
omfg its rebecca: *pets*
Ambition113: thank you!
omfg its rebecca: *moan*
Ambition113: UGHHH
Ambition113: dont make me get strawberry involved.
Ambition113: she'll make you stop
Ambition113: with her strawberry powers
omfg its rebecca: OOOH STRAWBERRIES
omfg its rebecca: kinky
Ambition113: EWWW
Ambition113: okay thats it
Ambition113: IM TELLING STRAWBERRY
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: i told her!
Ambition113: THERE
omfg its rebecca: *ORGASM*
Ambition113: OMG YOURE LIKE A CRAZY SICK FREAK MACHINE
Ambition113: im sure rachael wouldnt approve. i should show her this. show her the REAL YOU!!!!
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: UGH JUST STOP
omfg its rebecca: *ORGASMMMMMMMM*
Ambition113: i WILL show her
Ambition113: HAHAH- EWWW
omfg its rebecca: MMMBABY
Ambition113: its only getting worse :-(
Ambition113: this is hopeless
Ambition113: SAVE ME
omfg its rebecca: I'LL SAVE YOU
omfg its rebecca: MILAN: *ORGASM*
Ambition113: NO NO NO NO
Ambition113: YOU hAVE NO POWER OVER ME
omfg its rebecca: MILAN: OH YEAH GIVE IT TO ME *MOAN*
Ambition113: NO NO NO
Ambition113: I SWEAR IM GONNA POST THIS IN MY LJ
Ambition113: THAT IS A PROMISE!!!
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: if you O it up one more time, im posting this!
Ambition113: I SWEAR
Ambition113: *swears*
omfg its rebecca: *DOUBLEORGASM*
omfg its rebecca: OH MILAN
Ambition113: NO NO NO NO NO NO
Ambition113: THATS IT
Ambition113: THIS IS GOING IN THE LJ
omfg its rebecca: *MOOOOOOAN*
Ambition113: YOURE CRAZY
Ambition113: YOURE A CRAZY NYMPHO CRAZY PERSON
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: *cries* youre crazzzzzyyyy!!!
Ambition113: :'(
omfg its rebecca: OOH YES OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
Ambition113: *sits down*
Ambition113: i will NOT be bothered by this anymore!
Ambition113: i am a MAN
omfg its rebecca: A HOT MAN
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: AHHHHHH!!!
Ambition113: *locks himself in the closet*
Ambition113: HAHAHAHAHA
omfg its rebecca: *RUBS AGAINST THE CLOEST*
Ambition113: UGGHHH GROSSS THATS SO WRONG
Ambition113: I WANT MY MOMMY
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN*
Ambition113: you
Ambition113: must
Ambition113: stop!
omfg its rebecca: *ORGASM*
Ambition113: *ignores*
omfg its rebecca: *sigh*
omfg its rebecca: i gotta go
omfg its rebecca: to harry potter
omfg its rebecca: well
omfg its rebecca: i'm asking permission
omfg its rebecca: i'll orgasm when i see harry
Ambition113: hahaha
Ambition113: im still posting this
Ambition113: this changes nothing
omfg its rebecca: :D okay!
omfg its rebecca: *MOAN* ILOVEYOUOOOH
Ambition113: WHAT?
Ambition113: YOU.. YOU AGREED?
Ambition113: grrr
Ambition113: that takes away the fun
Ambition113: goodbye you nympho
omfg its rebecca signed off at 4:16:05 PM.

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 13:22:51 GMT

I'm still sick :-( I've spent the whole weekend at home, bored out of my pants.

But at least I got down to practicing bass. We've got a practice scheduled for Wednesday from 2-4. Now I have something to look forward to.

I want to watch HP and the POA. Everyone's talking about it, even some of my friends at school who wouldn't normally admit to watching a Harry Potter movie.

*coughs a lot*

Trip

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 10:22:54 GMT

I'll be gone for a couple of days, just so you know. We're going down south for a few days to watch a Brazil-Argentina game. My dad loves soccer, especially international matches. I asked him if we could watch the Pistons-Lakers games instead, but he didn't like the idea of going to L.A. Too crowded and too loud.

I'll see you later.

Fri, 28 May 2004 20:41:34 GMT

Things are going pretty well. School's almost out.

Today I had a meeting with my band (Me- Bass, backup guitar, backup vocals, Kyle-Drums, Daniel-backup guitar, vocals, and keyboard, Bruno- lead guitar and Felipe-vocals) and we talked about getting ready for the next opportunity to play. Everyone's enthusiastic, because it's been a while since we last practiced as a group. So far we've decided to build a set with:

1. Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band (by the Beatles)
2. I Believe in a Thing Called love (by the Darkness)
3. Try to make up something on our own.
4. Aeroplane (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

Umm... That's basically it. We'll practice on our own until next Friday, when we'll practice together.

Tonight there's the Athletic Awards ceremony. I guess I have to go to that.

And the Pistons game is tonight as well. Can't wait. They better win.

That's all for now.

Tests

Tue, 25 May 2004 22:00:50 GMT

Tesssttssssssss. That's what the last two days have been about. Yesterday I went an got an eye test, which went well. Then this morning we had the fitness test. I ran the mile in 7:09, which is alright, but I've done better and really wanted to make it under 7:00. I did 66 sit-ups, which is my usual. I've only broken 70 twice. 37 (cm.s?) on the sit and reach. Ummm.... 27 push-ups in a minute. 30 seconds on the flexed arm hang. Shuttle run in 9.3 seconds. And 10 pull-ups (best I've done in my life.) So, the results weren't bad.

Then afterschool I had this AP entrance exam, which wasn't hard at all. There was some reading comprehension and I had to write an essay about whether wisdom lead to sorrow or not. I said it did, but I realized half way through writing that I wasn't really sure. I think it was good anyway. I stuck with my original opinion.

And after that I just played basketball with my buds for a while.

Now I have to prepare of this stupid debate tomorrow. I chose stemcell research as my topic.

Ohhhh, and let's all congratulate my Detroit Pistons for winning last night. A well-fought victory.

Sun, 23 May 2004 16:10:29 GMT

My dad started talking to me about moving schools today. The school is starting to have financial problems, because the board hasn't been able to pass the increased tuition. He says that in case something goes wrong with the school, we should start considering the alternatives.

He said maybe I could move to a boarding school for my junior year. That wouldn't be so bad. Lots of my old friends go to boarding schools and they like it. He said maybe I could take some time off and do an exchange program in France or something. That's always possible I guess. My mom said maybe I could just go to one of the other local private schools, but I don't like any of them. They also say since I'm young for my grade I could go on to my junior here, then repeat my junior year at another school, do my senior year and graduate there.

It's really made me start thinking about the future of my education. First of all, I don't want to move schools. I've established myself here, and I wouldn't be part of any of the organizations I'm in now if I just move schools. Plus I probably wouldn't be elected class president when I'm a new student.

I'm really a bit bothered by all this talk. Maybe it's because I'm unsure of myself, and maybe it's just because it's so much of a burden to consider all of this.

There's so much I want to do for next year, so much I feel that I HAVE to do. I've got to keep my grades up, keep up with the NHS and Student Council, I've got to make the basketball team, I want to continue with my guitar lessons, I want to bring my band back together and play a few shows again, I want to start up Tae Kwon Do where I left off, and I wish I could go back to taking French and Latin like I did at W.E.S. (my old school) instead of the Portuguese that I'm doing here.

There just isn't enough time in a day. What can I do? Guitar twice a week, Tae Kwon Do twice a week, maybe a language once a week? That's 5 days of extracurriculars. Then the 4 hours of homework I'll probably get daily. Oh yeah, what about basketball?!? 3 days a week minimum, which is at least 7 hours a week. Well, basketball is only two months long, so I could cut out of everything else during that period. Even so, it's a lot to do. I need to sleep about 9 hours a day. That's just how I work. 4 hours of homework plus one hour of extracurriculars minimum, starting at 3:00. I could be done by 8:00. But it just doesn't work like that. A kid needs time to breathe. I would still need time to hang out with my friends, go places, get to some parties, meet people... You know?

And then what about college? I still don't know for sure what I want to be, and I have no idea where to go for college. I don't know any colleges except the ones that send me those stupid letters in the mail, which no one's heard of until the letter comes. "Going into Business? Consider Babson College." "Is Knox College the school for you?" I have no idea. Thanks for asking though.

But writing all of this down does make me calmer. I've organized my thoughts. YOU probably don't really care much at all about any of this stuff I'm telling you. And I don't blame you :-) But thanks for listening. It really does help a lot. I feel better already. My dad's always telling me not to worry. I used to worry a lot. Especially about money. There was a time when I was little when I was really paranoid about money, which ridiculous as we're very well off. Now I worry about different things, which are even more ridiculous.

So where am I going to be in 5 years? I'd give a lot to know. How is the next year going to unfold for me? Will I still be at my current school? Will I be able to pull through with all the things I want to, or am I going to drive myself mad with the tasks I've set myself?

Wouldn't life be great without expectations? I'm not saying that my parents pressure me, because they don't. I'm sure they'd be perfectly happy and proud of me in any case. It's not them. It's me. It's all me. I make myself who I am.

Thanks again for listening. Now I don't feel so tired and worn down.

Sat, 22 May 2004 16:05:37 GMT

Another week has gone by. Painfully uneventfully. School is wrapping up, and by June 3rd I should be done for the year, as I'll be exempt from all exams.

I was nominated for PSL, English, and Student-Citizen of the Year, although most would agree I deserve more. Like Social Studies. I mean I was clearly the best student in Modern World History. And Science as well. I'd say I was tied for the best Chemistry student. I definitely deserved Math also, as I have the highest grade in Algebra II Honors and I never give the teacher any trouble. I can understand not being nominated for Music.

I suppose it's only fair that they give other kids a chance though. I probably won't actually win any awards though, except maybe 10th Grade Student-Citizen of the Year. Usually the upperclassmen win.

I bought a ticket for the afterprom and was supposed to go last night, but after staying up until 12:00 the previous night, watching the important Pistons-Nets game (which, by the way, was a great game and my Pistons won), I was waayyy too tired to go. What a waste. I wonder if it was any good.

More later.

These Days....

Fri, 14 May 2004 19:08:40 GMT

Well, here's the deal.

I haven't been writing lately because school is so boring that there is no need to, and because the school year is soon to end, there are no interesting activities going on.

But here's what's happened lately.

I brought my schoolwork back up to scratch with a 102 on tests in both Alg.II Honors and Chemistry, so I'm pretty much set for exam exemptions for the fourth semester in a row, except if I happen to screw up in English (I have a 93 in that class... don't know how the heck that happened).
Also, the Writing Sample results came back, and I ranked in the 98th percentile compared to other private school student in the U.S. Plus I was re-elected Class President for next year. And Mr. Topham (the Guidance Councilor) finally handed out slips on which we fill out our schedules for next year... He laughed in his old man-coughing sort of laugh (the guy's like 80) when he saw my schedule, and said it would be very challenging for me but there was no question that I could handle it. He said it would require 3-4 hours of work a night, and lots of reading and writing.

Here's what I've "chosen":

Pre-Calculus Honors
AP World History
AP English
Computer Literacy (I'll try to raise my unbearingly basic knowledge of computers to the next level.)
Jazz Band
Portuguese Second Language III
AP Biology

According to the teachers I talked to, taking 3 AP courses in my junior year is not usually advised, and that I'd have to really know how to handle my time.

But I think I'm the kind of person that lives for these challenges. I'll probably get stressed out and bothered, but trying to juggle my academics, athletics and musical pursuits with my bands (not to mention being a high ranking class officer) is going to make me a really complete person...

And I can't stand not being complete.

Sat, 08 May 2004 18:46:49 GMT

It's been a boring week. Lots of work. I've just been in school or playing basketball. Plus I've been thinking about remobilizing the band. We've been dormant since the formation of BullShot.

Today my sister lost her first tooth. And then we went to the Swedish Embassy for this art festival. And later we're going to church.